I felt God wrap me up in His warm embrace. I wasn’t alone, and for the first time in far too long, I felt safe. Even with E next to me. God was with me. He did love me. He felt my agony, the fear, the loneliness. God gave me exactly what I needed. He helped give me clarity about what I needed to do, what I needed to grab and take with me when my family came to get me. He made sure that my phone call to family was immediately picked up. E stayed fast asleep, as did our pets, and that is something that had never happened before.

I had been in hell for so long, it had become my home. When I started to crawl out, weak, desperate, alone, terrified, God reached out and carried me out, the rest of the way. He had been working behind the scenes, knowing that one morning, I would wake up feeling exactly as I did, ready to end it all. He never wavered in His love for me, even as I turned my back on Him. I cursed Him, hated Him, and He still worked to free me from a hell that I helped create. He didn’t hesitate to wrap me up in His arms.

That morning began my journey into strengthening my relationship with God. Into wanting to understand Him, and move forward from the resentment I still carried towards Him from other situations.

This series will be about building an intimate relationship with God. It will be about forgiveness, understanding, growth, and wisdom. You’ll learn more about me, but you’ll also learn about God.