For the first time since I was in middle school, I was unmedicated. My emotions were difficult to control, and they felt foreign. This was my newest hurdle. I had to learn to feel things in a healthier way. I had to reign in my emotions. With God leading the way, I slowly learned how to be more objective with my feelings. I learned when I was being dramatic, and overly sensitive, and when I was right to feel how I felt. I learned how to breathe before speaking when I’m angry, how to feel hopeless, and not suicidal or have thoughts of self-harm. I learned how to do a better job at compartmentalizing, and taking myself out of equations so I could get a true, and objective look at situations.

Though I learned a lot, these lessons are still being worked on, constantly. I am always a work in progress. The only emotions I never feel anymore are the ones that deal with wanting to die or hurt myself. How amazing is that? God is great, and because I was finally seeing Him for who He really is, I grew more and more hungry to build a relationship with Him. I wanted to know Him intimately, as I knew He knew me intimately. The beginning of my journey to know my Father began with one specific verse.

Be still and know that I am God – Psalm 46:10. God is telling me to be quiet, and have faith. He is telling me that there is nothing He cannot do. He created all, and He is greater than all. He is telling me to look at where I am, and how I got there. He is telling me that with Him I am safe, and I can rest because He is the Great I Am. This Psalm, I made personal, but the truth is, He is telling all of us the same thing. Be still and know that He is God. Nothing is too great for Him.