abuse
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When I first started seeing my last psychologist, I couldn’t stand him. He was the complete opposite of me in personality. Where I was emotional, dramatic, and spoke in metaphors, he was logic, reality, truth, and straightforward. I kept seeing him only because he provided me an out. For one whole hour, I could escape…
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Hope used to be a foreign feeling to me. Something I felt was a stupid emotion for suckers. When I was in my several years long abusive relationship, I watched as my family had hope I’d wake up. I watched the heartache, the tears, the anger, and the devastation my family felt as they watched…
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This is a difficult one. Trust is intimidating. It’s frightening. For me, trusting someone not to berate me, rape me, beat me, isolate me, own me, seemed not only impossible, but stupid. I had been beaten down by enough people in my life that I had closed myself off from even thinking about trusting anyone…
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What comes to mind when you think about, ‘love always protects’? You probably think about protecting your children, spouse, pets, family, and friends. Those are all important to protect, but what about ourselves? For decades I thought I was great at protecting myself, simply because I was still alive. My life showed a different story.…
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When I was younger, I was dating this guy that was a bit off. He enjoyed yelling at me, and blaming me for everything. He enjoyed giving me visible hickeys, (I protested every time) and sending me out, as if he was claiming me as his property. One night, he drugged me. That night, he…
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My ex was a volatile person. Anger was their entire personality. I had many reasons to believe they didn’t love me, but their constant state of anger was one of the biggest. I was always being yelled at, blamed, accused, and even physically hurt. So much hate was being spewed my way, on a daily…